Friday, December 4, 2009
This is a public blog so let's face it... my parents have the potential to come across it. So I'm not going to spill all my baggage out there but, basically, I was a REALLY good kid and I had a VERY strict step-mom. I think she'd admit to that much, I hope. I never did drugs, never drank, never partied.
In the opinion of EVERY psychologist I've seen for any reason they've all told me that I grew up too quickly. The psych yesterday thinks I am nurturing the child state of me because I didn't get enough time to be completely in the child state. If I'm twisting his words around a bit you'll have to forgive me because there was a LOT of information to take in during our session. So he suggested I try to nurture my child state in different ways than food. Think about it... what are one of the ways you nurture a child? You feed it. I feed my child state a wee bit too much and too often! :) He suggested I try to figure out what my child state needs. This could be done on my own by journaling (helloooo blog world) or by seeking professional help. He, being a psychologist himself, of course recommends that I see someone. I agree with him but just don't know where I will fit it into my schedule.
I told him something he really liked too. I told him I was worth the time and money (if it costs and isn't covered by insurance) to take care of myself. I've already spent a LOT of money to get this band so why wouldn't I take whatever necessary steps to further help myself since it appears I need it?! I will NOT fail myself OR this band. I refuse.
Ahhhh. You gotta love a good psychologist session! :) You know what else I love? My blog ladies! You were all SO supportive of my last post and I had tears with each comment that came in. I am SO thankful!